Day 4 of the 30 day sobriety journey

Here I am at day 4 of my journey to not drink.  Strangely, I actually didn’t feel any urge to drink today during work or on the way home.

I don’t know if this is because I was full from eating lunch out with a friend and then porking free food at the Friday work party, or if maybe I’m beginning to break the habit of daily drinking.

I did Day 4 of the Sobriety Solution today which focused on the causes of my drinking, which I try to hide or suppress by drinking.  It was shockingly easy to generate a longish list of things I’m disappointed with in my life, things that never went my way, and ways that I wish I were different.

The end of the exercise had me focus on forgiving myself for all of those issues and shortcomings.  In a way it felt good, but also, it’s hard to just think-away negative things like being nearly 39 and not even having a girlfriend, let alone being married by this point in life…

The weekend is coming-up, and it’s my first not drinking.  Not that I usually go-out or anything, but I often drink beer on the weekend afternoons while doing other exciting stuff like cleaning the house.  I’m not predicting any problems since my main urge to drink is usually caused by being at work and weekends are ‘optional’ drinking days.  After all, I’d rather be hung-over during work’s time than my own precious two days off each week! 😛

On another note, it’s mentally satisfying to head-out to lunch with a buddy.  I don’t get to do that much as eating-out generally doesn’t help the other project I’ve been working on: losing weight.  But, it sure is fun!

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