Still on schedule, just past three weeks without drinking. The urge to hit the liquor store on the way home after work is easily avoided at this time, and even the booze in my pantry can be looked-at and I don’t feel the need to pour a quad-shot like I used to.
That’s not to say that the urge is completely gone…
Last night, for some reason, I was in a weird “funk” and really felt like hanging-out with a good friend who lives about 70 miles away. But, since that’s too far to drive round-trip on a work night, I simply headed-home. It was during this odd sense of wanting to be social, but instead heading home to an empty house, that I felt a strong urge to grab a couple Pit
Bull malt liquors on the way home.
But, I didn’t.
After listening to the daily content from the 30 day program, and then watching a bit of Stargate SG-1, I lost that odd emotional feeling and felt normal again.
This is especially interesting since today’s 30 day content was about emotional intelligence and emotional sobriety. After hearing about this material, I recognize the feelings and thoughts I was having last night and in the future, will attempt to contain and reverse such downward spirals.
Other than last night, the past week or so since my previous post has been pretty easy as far as staying sober. I’m still working on the positive thinking and enacting a bit of that every day and I think I feel better as a result.